I've been agonizing lately (hence the sickness). I KNEW who I was and what I wanted beyond a shadow of a doubt up until 2 & 1/2 yrs ago. All that was stripped away and now I don't know who the fuck I am or what the fuck I want and I feel so lost. Grandmother begs to differ. She says that it makes me free. She's completely excited for me and about my life. She says I can go anywhere and be anything. Why don't I see that?