Saturday, April 28, 2012

The Last Eleven Months...

I took a bit of time off from this blog. I don't really know why. I think I was encountering so much stuff and living so so much that I didn't really feel like chronicling the whole thing. It's been an eventful year (or close to one). Some good some bad as in everyone's life. Two crushing disappointments that still scar my soul and perhaps will for some time to come. Couple notable victories. An ending leading to another beginning. One reconciliation. A total shift in perspective that's led to some bitterness/cynicism. 36 was an interesting and eventful trip around the sun for me. Just hit 37 on the 18th so I'm curious what will come. Where will I be? I mean more in terms of mentally/emotionally than physically at this point. My new position is located here in Austin, TX so I foresee being here a few more years. N I hope to grow more. To care for myself more. To figure out why I'm so desperately unhappy so often. I blame the things around me, but I think I just do that because I don't know how to fix what I feel inside. This past year was rough because I feel like I'm coming to the point of facing the fact that I just might not be a happy person.
Sooo, what will I learn about myself this year? Will I just make peace with the fact that I might just be morose, and perhaps that's just fine? I don't know. But I'll try to write about it here more. Or just whatever random thoughts I have. I've missed this blog. :)