Learned a lot since Friday. A LOT. I've not even fully wrapped my mind around it all. The biggest shock to me is the level that I'm closed off to absolutely everyone in my life. I mean some people I know I am because I like them too much which is just automatic shut-down for me. I am concerned about hurting those I care about. I need to get over the fear of letting people in. It's far greater than I knew. Soooo, that will be a project for me.