I Went Wandering

This is a very intense time of year for me. Three years ago I came to Austin to scout it out (before formally departing 2 months later), but truthfully it could have been any place. I was frantically trying to escape my old life and run to something better. I have been hit hard by the loss of my boys in the last few weeks, but as my Guru pointed out, maybe it's another part of letting go of my old life. Also as my good friend pointed out today, "SO much has happened in this time!!!"

As I was getting ready to leave, I cannot tell you how often I played this song. Over and over and over and over again. I was so psyching myself up for the move. I still marvel at how I did it. The hold the old life had on me. How did I do it? My grandmother says, "You were driven, I've never seen anything like it." I'd be surprised if the drive from Orlando to Austin has ever been done that quickly and with only one bathroom break. I was definitely driven.

So as I shed two very strong ties to the past, I can't help but wonder - "What does the future hold?" I think some really amazing things.




I went out walking
Through streets paved with gold
Lifted some stones
Saw the skin and bones
Of a city without a soul
I went out walking
Under an atomic sky
Where the ground won't turn
And the rain it burns
Like the tears when I said goodbye
Yeah I went with nothing
Nothing but the thought of you
I went wandering

I went drifting
Through the capitals of tin
Where men can't walk
Or freely talk
And sons turn their fathers in
I stopped outside a church house
Where the citizens like to sit
They say they want the kingdom
But they don't want God in it

I went out riding
Down that old eight lane
I passed by a thousand signs
Looking for my own name

I went with nothing
But the thought you'd be there too
Looking for you

I went out there
In search of experience
To taste and to touch
And to feel as much
As a man can
Before he repents

I went out searching
Looking for one good man
A spirit who would not bend or break
Who would sit at his father's right hand
I went out walking
With a bible and a gun
The word of God lay heavy on my heart
I was sure I was the one
Now Jesus, don't you wait up
Jesus, I'll be home soon
Yeah I went out for the papers
Told her I'd be back by noon

Yeah I left with nothing
But the thought you'd be there too
Looking for you

Yeah I left with nothing
Nothing but the thought of you
I went wandering