"That's Amazing, So Much Love, and Also So Much Information"

Sharing is caring, or is it? I know I take it to the extreme here and on my FB and in person and on the phone, but other than that...

This isn't some passive aggressive rant. I'm not alluding to anything that anyone reading this did. I am reeling from an incident I witnessed recently. I'd classify it as an ambush, but that's me. Actually, I got someone else's opinion today and she's in agreement.

Let me just tell you this. If anyone ever needs to confront me about something and picks doing so in a room full of a few hundred people, there are going to be consequences and repercussions.

(the pic is from failbook, really drives home my 'so much information' point really well)
(the title is from B. Stiller's character in "Meet the Parents" right after DeNiro's character reads the horrific poem about his mother being ravaged by cancer. God, I love that film)

Have Fun This Weekend...But Not TOO Much Fun

Hope everyone has a great weekend. I'll be recuperating from my non-strep throat issue. I'll also be getting acupuncture, a massage, and prepping for my fully raw 15 day challenge.

I may write, I may not.

Take care...

What Do You Want?

OMG, this pic by "R2on" really sums up how I feel. I feel like I've been handed the keys to the kingdom, but now I have choose what I want. I really don't know what I want. I've been so embroiled in my pointless little battles that I've been completely distracted for the last __+ years.

So What Do I Want?

I know I want to do something that makes a difference. A big difference. I know I want to help people. Really help them. Authentically help them. I know I want to be a person of my word, a person of honor. I know I want to mend my relationships and have all my interactions with those I know and those I don't be meaningful. These things I know.

Do I want to remarry? Do I want a family? I don't know. That's something that has been plaguing me. I sometimes think I do, but would that just distract me from my bigger purpose? I really think my being alone the last 2 & 1/2 yrs has been HUGE in me moving forward as much as I have. Perhaps if I found the right partner that would help me move along even further? I don't know. I'll sort of back-burner this, but it's definitely simmering (on the back-burner)

Future-Baby Max Won't Know What Hit Him...

OMG, I saw this on awkwardfamilyphotos and suddenly my need to have a child returned. If Future-Baby Max ever takes on a life outside of my head, he just might find himself in a similar 'outfit', have you ever???

After 2 wks of AGONIZING over a blender, I have sprung for the $650 + shipping one. I am serious as the heart attack I'm hopefully now preventing about this whole raw thing. Seems Green Smoothies/Juices are the way. So here I go. There are a lot of people on FB doing the 15 day challenge beginning Jun 1st. It will be so nice to have that kind of support. I might start over the Mem Day Weekend. I have no plans so why not, that's if the most expensive appliance I've purchased to date gets here in time.

Still processing so much from this weekend. I'd say my current mood is BOLD. Bold as all f---. I just feel like going up to people and saying, "I want x, y, and z and you WANT to give it to me!!!". Whhhaaaaaaaaaaa??? That's so not me. I love it!!!

Hiding

Learned a lot since Friday. A LOT. I've not even fully wrapped my mind around it all. The biggest shock to me is the level that I'm closed off to absolutely everyone in my life. I mean some people I know I am because I like them too much which is just automatic shut-down for me. I am concerned about hurting those I care about. I need to get over the fear of letting people in. It's far greater than I knew. Soooo, that will be a project for me.

Smells Like Victory -- and Napalm

So I had an amazing weekend. I'm finding as the day has gone on that dreams of the past are resurfacing. Can't wait to see where this all takes me. I found a really awesome pic that I found when I searched "Sea of Possibility", but my computer is giving me evils so here is one from a week or two ago.

"YOU Are the One. Why are you waiting on others?"

I 'heard' this over and over in my head at the very end of my acupuncture session this evening. I almost said out loud, "The One what???" It was intense. Hopefully over the next three days I'll be able to sort out what it all means.

If I have the energy each night, I'll write about what's going on with the seminar but I'm freeing myself to talk or not talk to anyone for the next three days. Just so you know.

See you on the other side. : )